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3月8日 UPDATEIt has been uch a looonnnggg time since I have updated my blog and I am sorry. My life has taken such a new turn .
As you all know I started a new job in November 2007 and it has changed my life drastically in all aspects. I absolutely
love my job. I have learn new things every day. I love what I do. It is very challenging and there is pressure . There are
alot of deadlines to meet. I keep amazing myself . I have been traveling alot which come with the job . The family is doing really good. Growing pains of course. Scottie turned 17 in December and BEbe turned 16 , mike turned 15 in february and risa turned 10 also in february. The kids have had to adjust to me being gone sometimes a week at a time but they seem to undertand the reason why. "M" has been the one to change drastically. He has stepped in and taken my role with the kids. He cooks for them and has even taken up playing chauffeur. I am really proud of him. My sister is about to leave for IRAQ again. She is stationed in Germany BUT is in Carolina right now . She is suppose to be visiting me before she leaves.
I cannot believe how quick this year is going by! Can you all believe we are already in March ! I hope all of you are doing well , I have alot of visiting to do ! Suzie Q , I hope u are doing well , I thought of you the other day. Hey Mitch !!! hope all is well ! Well you all I will scheck you all out and I think I am going to give me page an update !
Kisses :
Rennie 11月14日 Who is She?I'm here !!! I did not forget about y'all jusst been very consumed !! I have started the new job and it is unbeliveable !!! I never in a million trillion years thought I could land a job like this. First of all I have to thank my parents ,they were instrumental in me starting the job prepared. There were things that I needed that I was not able to get and they helped me acquire them. I would not have been able to begin this new adventure without the help of my parents. I guess no matter how old we are we are still someones children. Well now the job is one big piece of heaven. I am in training right now but so far I love it. I will be traveling at least one week out of every month. I will be in and out of the office. I am not micro managed by any means. I was given a credit card , they set up an account @ enterprise rent a car for me , I was given a cell phone allowance , etc. I was alsso given my portfolio which includes 27 properties. It is definitely going to be a challenge but I am up for it !!! The drive is an hour long so 2 hours a day 1 up and 1 back. I usually get home about 6 :15 and the drive is pretty easy. I like the people that I work with they are all very mature. I made a really good decision. Now "M" is giving me hell , he is giving me the silent treatment and wanted me to turn it down but as you know that did not happen. This is onlythe begining . My life is definitely changing. I can only go up now !! The kids are doing okay with the transition. I get up @ 5am and get rissa up and we leave the house @ 6:15 am , I drop her off @ the sitters and she catches the bus from there and I head off to work. The boys are doing okay. I am really content with my professional life right now , hint, hint.I hope you all are doing well. I am going to visit your pages in a minute . Can you all believe this year is almost over ? time sure flew by this year. Another year come and gone. Well I will end with this :
Who Is She : By : Irene
Who is she? Am I she?
She has come a long way , sometimes walking , sometimes crawling , sometimes
crying , but always surviving , who is she ?
Ten years ago she dared to dream , Riddled with
confusion she use to be . Sleepless nights , regretful fights, up all night fighting
Selfless plights, she use to think, who would she be ? Heart heavy in hand she never took a stand she let him deal the hands. Round and round like a merry go round was the cycle of her lifes ups and downs , and slowly she lost herself , who is she?
She is me and now I've found myself.
Rennie
10月12日 I got the job!!!I want to start this entry by giving all the glory to god. Only he knows our hearts and desires.
I GOT THE JOB !!!! I GOT THE JOB !!! I GOT THE JOB!!! I GOT THE JOB!!! I GOT THE JOB!! I GOT THE JOB!!
They called me yesterday around lunch time!!! and offered me the job , it went like this :
My cell phone rang, I answered it , "Hello"?
"Irene , hello , how are you doing ,this is Mrs. Marcus".
" I am doing great , how are you "?
"Well we want you to come work for us "!!!
I jumped up out of my chair and lost it.
I said "I would love to come and work for your company".
SHe says , "We will be in touch , your tentative start date will be October 29, 2007 no later than
November 5, 2007".
I said , "Okay ".
she said , "Okay , well I will call you next week".
Then we said our goodbyes.
I hung up the phone and the tears started to fall . I cried and cried and thanked the lord , because only he knows. THis is a major accomplishment in my life a very big step in my life. I am so privileged to be given this opportunity. Its like my dream job , I have prayed about hsi for a long time now and here it is.
I have to thank Marsha aka Mamaw : I wouldn't be here where I am today if it wasn't for her . She gave me my start in the business and taught me everything she knows and continues to teach me and gives me
confidence. She gave me the confidence to succeed and be the professional I am today. I love her.
Well , now I have to get a tune up for my car , 4 new tires, a gps system which is at walmart for 200.00 , I can remember when they were like 1,000.00. I need a balckberry, a laptop , a briefcase, oh and new brakes on my car ! But I look at this like an investment . I have no degree and I am about to embark on one of the greatest journeys of my life .
Rennie
10月4日 Slow downI am exhausted. I had a scare today. I went to my regular job today the 9 to five and then I had to work at my part time . I got there bout 5 thirty ish and started on a register right away. I began to feel a little light headed but kept going. I asked one of my co workers to go get me a bag of cookies and she did, but I only ate two of them. Toward the end of the night I was feeling really out of charachter . then I could feel myself losing it. Before I knew it I was on the ground. I felt very embarassed because I gave my supervisor such a scare but I could feel myself going. I quickly got mysself together and I felt very dizzy and my toes felt kind of numb. I got up slowly drank some juice I had at the desk and stayed still for a minute. I proceeded to call someone to come and get me . I know I have been over doing it, plus with all the stress of the interviews I went through this week it really took alot out of me. I am tired . I have to slow myself down.On another note the boys , Scottie and Bebe just informed me that they want to go to homecoming. They go to the same school now. "Oh my gosh , can you picture that"? They both asked me for new suits. they better get to darn school on time before they ask me for some suits . I hate fighting with them in the morning on geting up and making it to school on time . My mikey is on the other hand making hi smother proud. He is doing very good in school and is already practicing taking the psat. Thats going to be my star child. I am still praying for the job I interviewed for. I have not heard anything, I guess no news is good news right now. Well its late , I am heading on to bed now .. Tomorrow is friday , thank god !!
Rennie 10月3日 Wednesday . 3rd interviewIts Wednesday the midle of the week and guess what? I made it to my second interview. My 2nd interview is today in RIchmond @ 2pm . I am so excited but at the same time I still cannot believe I made it this far. I feel like it is already written what is going to transpire. Everything else is going okay. I got up this morning an d got Rissa Ann ready for school. I look at this little girl and see a mirror image of me when I was her age. The same exact picture. She is so precious. She is evolving into her own person. She has her own thoughts and expresses her emotions freely. MY little girl can look at me and make my heart melt. She cares about what I think. SHe always hugs me and tells me she loves me everyday. I cannot stress enough how important it is to express openly to your child the love you have for them. Sometimes she will ask me to sleep with her till she falls asleep and she always want to make sure I am comfortable and then she'll say "Okay mommy , you can have the remote control ". I love her so much. I can't wait till she gets to be a teenager and we can really shop , go out to eat etc together , not that we don't already do that but its going to be fun for me. SHe will keep me young at heart . Well guys , its about that time , I am going to go now and put gas in the car , grab a bite to eat and head out to begin my new life and hopefully get this job!!
Kisses !!
Rennie 9月28日 Friday My prayers were answered today that is all I can say on that note. I held my tongue today and I was very proud of myself. It shows that I have matured , because back in the day I would have been a drama queen to the tenth degree. I kept quiet and chose my words carefully. I practiced self control and it was something new to me and to tell you the truth it felt kind of good. I don't always have to have the last word and sometimes silence goes a long way. On a different note , my interview is Monday and I am really excited . It is an interview with a panel of 4. Please give me some good tips if you have any. Well talk to you all soon.
Rennie 9月27日 Thoughts in my head Just random thoughts running through my mind bear with me .
1. Its not what you say it how you say it .
2. Actions speak way louder than words.
3. I know that you love me but I don't think you like me , you never
have.
4. His voice was filled with uncertainty today.
5. Time is of the essence .
6. I am the black sheep of the family.
7. My interview is Monday and I want the job really bad .
8. I tell my kids I love them every single day in one form or another.
9. I cuss alot.
10. I cried alot today .
11. I am not afraid anymore.
12. I am a beautiful woman inside and out .
13. I am going to be somebody someday.
14. My kids know that I that I love them.
15. I don't care anymore .
16. Do you because I am going to do me.
17. Keep it cute or put it on mute !
A LETTER TO MY BROTHERBrother :
You have consumed my mind , heart and soul these past few days. First and foremost I must tell you that I love you . Let there be no doubt in your mind of the unconditional love I hold for you . I am not here to judge , for who am I to judge? "Let he who is without sin cast the first stone".Brother, life is hard as you and I have already learned in different aspects. But let me tell you from first hand knowledge and I bring this to you from the bottom depths of my womb. In my darkest moments during the course of my life when I felt as if I could not go another step , take another breath , live another day , think another thought or cry another tear I prevailed. I did so at the mercy of our lord. He has carried me through hills and valley lows many times over. There are many times that I have felt like a complete failure throughout my life. Many times through out my life I have questioned "Why me"? I could never hear his answer. I waited and waited for a sign from him . Little did I know he answered me . He answered me by putting me to sleep, for crying endures for the night but joy comes in the morning . As I slept he cleansed my soul and heart . Brother, I tell you, he knows , we don't have to speak anything he knows everything , our sweet lord knows. For he is with us , beside us always and he comes in forms we don't expect. I know this for a fact. I am not a religious buff but I will tell you I have a spiritual Love for our lord. Let me tell you ,I have asked the lord for many years a question and he would never answer me . I would approach him in a mean way , I tried the nice way , I asked the question in every form I could and never received the answer. I finally accepted that I would never get an answer. I went on with my life . But as many people I have heard say that the lord answers on his time . It may not be today nor tomorrow , or next week , next year , next month , or five years , 10 years etc but in due time he will answer us. As he did me. I was 37 years old before he answered me . Thank You . Brother , he will answer you too. Surrender it all to him , its all we have . I will cherish your words for the rest of my god given life and even into eternity. You will never know the peace you have bestowed upon my soul. It took courage for you to open your heart up the way you did as I know you are a private person in your thoughts . I forgive you and I love you . I will stand behind you as your sister . I make that promise to you .
All my Love to you forever <
Your sister :
Irene 9月25日 Talking about Gundy sounds off
Quote Just watch this a commercial will play first , then the video will play. This really touched my heart strings . Gundy sounds off DEDICATED COACHI was absolutely moved to tears today . I boo hooed when I watched the coach from Oklahoma State @ his news conference defending one of his players against a journalist. Did you all see it. That coach was freakin awesome. He touched my heart strings. I wa sos proud of that man. What courage it took for him to stand up there and pour his heart out . He was amazing. As a mother I felt every emotion he was talking about. I applaud him over and over what dedication he has to his players now thats a real coach !!!
GO COACH !!!
PEACE OUT !
RENNIE 9月23日 SUNDAY BREAKDOWNI want to start writing a "SUNDAY BREAKDOWN", which will basically be a breakdown of my past week and things I feel were signifigant enought to share with you all . I will begin this sunday with the "Sunday Breakdown". This past week was filled with many emotions. I can say that this past week I have felt angry , hurt, mad, frustrated, emotionally drained , happy , and confused. Yeah , I know sounds like I should be on prozac , I know whos to ay I'm not. It begins at home same ole , same ole , the kids . Bebe was suspended and the first month of school hasn't even finished yet. I know that it really wan't his fault BUT he still needs to be held accountable for his action swhether someone is picking on him he should have turned around and walked the other way but he didn't and now he is suspended for five days. He has been at home and even though I pick up his homework and he does it , I am still frustrated and mad at the same time. # 2 is work.I was mad at work this week , It is just one thing right after another and it piles up and I lose my temper and start foaming at the mouth , it wassn't a pretty sight , then I had to come in the next day and apologize , that really sucked but I did it. # 3 I was happy that Maria had Daniel my nephew , But I was confused as to why my mom or my dad did not call me with any type of updates on her condition , my sister had to be the one to do that and I was kind of bummed out about that because my mother promised me she would call me . call me an emotional person but that is just who I am . #4 Someone that I love very much poured their heart out to me this week and apologized to me . I was in the begining confused but began to understand the process of why they were pouring their heart and concerns to me by the end of the conversation I was very teary and emotional . I prayed to god that night before I went to sleep and gave him my burdens of the conversation . # 5 I was frustrated because I was told that I was vain and conceited! I may be confident in things that I know but I am by far not conceited and no where near vain. I have dropped quite a few pounds but that is from working 2 jobs. My clothes are big on me and baggy . I have bought a few new pieces but have been afraid to go out a buy alot because I might gain the weight right back. I cut my hair because it needed it and maybe thats why I was called vain. We all know when we get a new haircut we swing our hair around a little bit but that doesn't constitute being labeled vain . Well there you have it the SUNDAY BREAKDOWN.
Gotta Love It !!!
Have A GREAT WEEK EVERYONE !!
PEACE ,
RENNIE
9月22日 Daniel Is hereGood Evening All :
My sister had her baby today. His name is Daniel . I Love my sister . She has grown into a beautiful woman and now she is a mother. I know she will be a wonderful mother. I have to say that she values family . I appreciate her concern for me. She lives in Germany and calls me almost everyday to see how I am doing and she listens to me . She is the one that called me and told me she was in labor. She was the one that called me and told me she had the baby. She had the baby naturaul , no epidural . When she called me and told me she had daniel , I cried , and I told her I was proud of her and she instead tells me she was proud of me . I appreciate her confidence in me more than she will ever know. I love you Maria with all of my heart and soul. We have come a long way .
I was having a conversation with someone today and I want you to give me your views on the debate we were having and the question was : Is parental love uncondtional? Is parental love a birth right ? You have to reach deep down inside of yourself and answer this Mitch, david , Lela , susan, Alley etc .. I don't feel it is ... But other people seem to think it is ... What do you think?
Rennie 9月20日 Pre Destined?I sit and wonder if the people we meet in our lives are pre destined? Is it already written everything that will happen to each of us? I spoke with someone today who told me that it is already written what is going to happen. It definitely left an impression on my brain. What do you all think? Well, it should be morning time in germany right now and my sister is suppose to be induced today. I will go to sleep tonite with the phone guarding my heart waiting for the arrival of my nephew daniel. Today was a rainy dreary day. The temperature is winding down. I love the fall time . It is one of my favorite seaons. Leaves changing , smell of the air ...... Breathe in , breathe out ...... gotta love it.
Thanks for the encouragement mitch , shout out to you !!!
Rennie 9月19日 Up LateI am the only one up right now. I am contemplating doing a few loads of laundry but then I looked at the computer and thought I would jot down a few thing s, maybe catch up. Today was a stresful day. I carry around a lot of anger. I get mad about things and just try and keep the feelings inside. Then it all comes out when I don't want it to. That i what happened this afternoon. I blew up and lot my temper at work . I didn't mean for it to come outthe way it did but it is too late the damage is done. I wish I could take back my word but I can't. So this mean in the morning I am going to have to go to work and take the heat , the
silent treatment and god knows what else. I talked to my sister today , she calls me just about everyday , I love when she calls me cause she alway scall me at the right time when I need someone to tell me to chill . She has not had the baby yet but 1 more day and daniel will be here.
Well I gues I will check u all out later .
Peace ,
Rennie 9月18日 HEy Everybody!!!!Greetings!!! I am still alive over here in VA . I am so sorry that I have not
had a chance to check in. I have been very consumed. I guess thats a good word
to use. The 2nd job thing is literally killing me. I admit that I am burnt out without a doubt. The kids are such a challenging experience for me. School is back on and Scottie is in the 11th grade, Bebe is in the 9th , Mikey is in the 8th grade and my Rissa Ann is in the 4th grade. "M" is still "M". I miss all of you !! I need to get to your spaces and Congrats to Reflections she is pregnant. GO Girl cause you are superwoman! Good for you. Believe it or not I think of you every now and then reflections. My sister Maria is about to have my nephew any day now . My mom and Dad are both in Ramstein Germany with my sister and her husband right now awaiting the birth . I wish I could have been there but can you imagine me leaving the country with these teenagers left at the house with their dad! He would probably kill them.
Okay , I have some good news. I have interviewed for a job that is a very big pay raise! It is of the corporate level and I never thought that I would be considered for this kind of opportunity. My 2nd interview is Oct 1, 2007 @ 2pm . I am really excited. I will be traveling . I am so excited but nervous.
Now lets see what else? My relationship is still the same . I have lost some weight not by choice though. I guess the 2 job thing has me dropping pounds which is a good thing. I cut my hair in a cleopatra style and have received many compliments for it. I needed a change . Well pray for me you all that I can land this job! I will check you all out!
Kisses ,
Rennie 7月19日 HEllo"Hey " to everyone out there. I have been really busy lately with working
the 2nd job and all. To tell you the truth I am exhausted. I never thought
I could be so tired. WOrking 2 jobs does take a toll on you . Rissa is in Maryland right now with her godmother , she is taking dramam classes , jewelery makeing classes and a class on how to manage your money. SHe picked them. I talk to her every night but I will say that I miss her terribly. She is kind of like my rock sometimes she has a way of making everything better. I took her summer shopping before she left because she had grown out of all her clothes and she was so happy. It was worth it to see her smile and to see her excitement on her face. She is growing up really fast . The boys are doing okay , scottie has gotten bit by the driving bug. He has his learners permit and he is hell on wheels. One of his best friends already has his license and it is so funny sometimes when the friend comes and picks up the boys to go hang out they are like little adults. Well I have so much more to say but right now I have to get back to work .. More later.
Rennie
7月10日 ExplanationHello to all. I have given my blog some serious thinking the past few
days and have come to the conclusion that I am not going to get rid of this
blotg that I have had for well over a year. I feel that I have been brutally
truthful in it , it is like an online diary . I love the comments that you all leave.
I like the new friends that I have made . I just felt like certain people that I
am close to in Virginia shouldn't have been reading it because if Iwanted them to
I would have told them about it but this is public knowledge and I have accepted it.
I never wrote about the people in Virginia that I claim as my second family because
I know they are private people and I wasn't sure how they would take me having a blog.
I didn't feel like I should have to explain myself over my feelings and most of the time they know
what happens in my day to day life , they know bout "M", they know bout the kids and
the problems that I battle with. They are here with me . Unfortunately my family
in Texas do not live in VA and I made that choice when I had children and stayed here.
My daddy did have a hand in finding my second family , he actually chose them and I believe in my heart the lord led my daddy to her that hot day in May . My daddy remembers how it began. I know this does not make sense to you all but it makes sense to my daddy and to mamaw.
More later ...
Love rennie 7月8日 I'm not sure waht to do?I have been checking my page settings and someone has been reading my blog that lives in virginia that isn't suppose to. I am not sure what to do , I think they feel like it is public knowledge but it is private to me . I have not written anything about them . I have only written about me and my kids etc. They have been reading alot today and have been going down the list of my entries. What should I do delete this and start a new one or what . If I wanted them to read it then I would have told them about it but I didn't because it is mine . I am tracking them and see when and what time they are reading. Please stop and you know who you are , and when I ask you about it stop lying to me and just tell me you are reading because I see when you do it. |
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